I didn't change with Xanga so now I feel very uncomfortable finding my way around it...  Sad day, but at least I still read the emails they send me sometimes.  I do wish I had written once this year, though.  So I'll write today.  I am heading out to the Vegas area this week.  I will be flying out tomorrow the 30th in the morning and not flying back until Tuesday the 4th of November. 

The trip kind of came out of nowhere.  The initial plan was to fly out to Cali in Jan/Feb for my great grandmother's 95th birthday (which may still happen), but the family is getting concerned that G. G'ma won't make it.  So since she is going to visit family in NV, my mother and I are flying out to hang out with everyone.  I am hoping to get a lot of good pictures and some video footage. 

Even though these trips are pricey and I am beyond flat broke, I really hope that we are still making the Cali trip.  My brother and I talked about putting together a video and it would be great if I could get more to put in it and we could show it off.  We will see, though.  As for this trip, I am a little unsure.  The timing is so odd.  Not only am I traveling over Halloween (which I hate and usual hide out during), but also my birthday (which I want to downplay since this trip is not about me) and daylight savings (which I have just never not been home for) and election day (which I will come back on and have already voted absenteely for).  It is just going to be odd.  I am sure we will have a blast, though.  I just have to be a little apprehensive, out of responsibililty or something...  That and I haven't packed at all yet :s  I need to run a load of laundry tonight.

Wow.  In other news?  Nope, that is about it.  Oh and my birthday party is on the 7th (with Dad's side of the family) and I can't for the life of me think of a good theme.  I will be turning 25, which you would think would have crazy potential for good themes, but after plenty of googling, I have come up with nothing.  It doesn't help that I don't have any money to plan with, but I wanted to take advantage of the given.  We'll see :)

I hope this finds you all well.  I may never say it, but I enjoy reading my xanga emails!  blessings, loves

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P.S.  Song of the week Love Lost
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Good little sad song...  I like the words...

*sigh*    I've not forgotten this as much as it may seem.  Tonight I saw something on my computer that said summer 06 on it.  I smiled and in that moment I should have moved on to the next thing I had to look at, but I stumbled back for a moment to what summer 06 was to me.  I hesitate to say it was a hard summer or a fun summer or an interesting/dull/shocking/mysterious summer.  It was all that in a different but equivocal way to all other summers.  Nothing about it was entirely extreme.  A song came to mind, though, a song that summed up part of that summer.  Not so much in the symbolic sense as in the 'i-listened-to-it-nonstop' sense.  And I had to hear it.  So I found it on myspace and listened to it.  And I am still listening to it.

And now I imagine you are asking yourself and possibly even me, "What is the ending?  What does that mean?  I need resolution."  There inlies my life right now, my friends.  I just don't get it.  I don't get me.  I am thankful for the song, thankful for what that summer was, thankful for a sliver of revisiting that time, and thankful for now and for the future.  But why the unquenchable urge to hear the song?  Confusion.  Must we all live in confusion?  No.  Is this where patience comes in?  Or am I being apprehensive about change?    *sigh*

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mmmm, good evening, lovelies...

another beautiful day.  not too much new today really.  i have less than two weeks to pull off super fantasticness, lol.  i'm working on it.  oh!  Chuck!  i gotta go...!


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and now...  the song that keeps drifting through my head:
one, two, three four
tell me that you love me more
sleepless, long nights
that was what my youth was for
oh teenage hopes are lying at your door
left you with nothing,
but they wanted more.
oh, oh, oh,
you're changing your heart.
oh, oh, oh,
you know who you are.
etc, etc...

Look!  I am writing again!  Today was a pretty good day.  This morning the system went down at work, completely down.  That entirely changed the tone of the day.  During that hour we all participated in a covert operation.  We being only the women in the office, because frankly it would have been odd if a man would have joined us.  Anyway, today was decently fun. 

I guess I have no story for today.  I feel like I do, but I can't really think of anything specific.  :D :D  :D  lol, shrug.  I'm just incredibly blessed. 

I guess that's it.  I'll work on making something exciting happen tomorrow.  ;)

Abra Abracadabra, I wanna reach out an' grab ya.  So, understatement of the month:  It has been awhile since I've written on my xanga.  I've been well.  Life has taken some majorly minor turns, but recapping would be like recapping something boring.  Even though my life is by no means boring ;)  I guess it's kind of relative. 

Anyway.  I have so much to do lately.  I'm planning up a storm :D  I like to plan things.  I don't know why.  I'm not really an expert at making things happen.  Last month I planned a surprise birthday party for my aunt.  That was a lot of fun!  I am so blessed to have so much of my family in the area.  It is weird with my brother gone, but he'll be back for Thanksgiving.

Well, I suppose I ought to get back to work.  :) 

(8) my situation goes round and round!  lol :)